Shattered...

“I can’t.  I can’t do it.  I can’t take it on.  I can’t take any more.  I just can’t.”

shattered

Does your community have the expectation that you will be a resource for them?  Do they expect wisdom and insight from you in the face of challenging times?  Are you a beacon in the dark for people?  Do you say the right thing at the right time, over and over again?  Do people look to you for guidance?  Are people expecting you to be able to support them right now?  Are you always strong?

Well I am shattered.  Devastated by a personal matter and also with what is going on with the world.  My bandwidth is severely limited, and I know it.  I can do what I do, but not for very long.  And then I need to rest, eat healthy, walk, love my dogs, meditate, sleep, hug my family, go for a skate, de stress on purpose, listen to music or drink some water.  And then I can come back to supporting others.  But not for long.  That’s challenging.  That’s new.

So, I am not normal.  And these times are not normal.  I need to raise and lower my expectations based on my current circumstances.  Hour by hour.  Day by day.  I will get to a new normal.  I know I will.  But I am currently shattered.  And so I need to pay close attention to that.  I need to be with that and take care of myself from there.  How about you?  Can you support others?  Or do you need support?  Either is ok.  Be clear about both.  

Be safe.  Make good choices.  Be kind.  Offer support.  

P.S.  Thank you to all the people who are speaking so clearly and powerfully.  Thank you for offering your support in some new and unique ways.  I love being able to share all of it with my community.